Father's Day

Father's Day 

Dear father
On this day I would like to thank you
For showing me I can be independent
By never being there for me when I needed you. 
Because of this
I don't need you at all. 
Thank you
For making me question whether or not
I could actually call you a "father".
Thank you
For showing me everything
That a father shouldn't be. 
Thank you
For leaving me scarred 
And damaged
With trust issues and anxiety disorders.  
Thank you
For making chaos the norm. 
Thank you
For never forming a relationship with me
Because I sure am fucking glad
I never got to know who you really were
When I was a little girl. 
Thank you
For making promises
So I grew up knowing
That everyone lies. 
Thank you
For leaving a hole in me
That I've filled with hatred
Because now
I can dump it right back on you. 
Thank you.